In the loving memory of my father.

hi and salaam.
it's been quite a while hasn't it.
things have been happening though i haven't been blogging as faithfully as i should.Guess that is expected and would be accepted from a new mother.(this time around i have a valid excuse eh?)

i cant go on as its been all lollipops and rainbows.
my father passed away a while ago.
On the 12th of April.

i just haven't been able to put myself to write about it.
every time i go to my parent's,i go thinking of seeing him.talking to him.
and then i remember that he's gone.still seems unreal.

i was with him the last moments of his life that he spent conscious..He was having very much difficulty breathing.,so he wasn't really able to speak,but i saw how strong and brave my father was.
He passed away while he was in the ICU, sedated,and i was called to the hospital and went there not even knowing that he had passed away. :-(
as i sat to write this post,i thought i was,but tears streaming down my face,i have only just realized that i am still not ready to talk about it..someday maybe i will be.maybe i wont.

the pain would never go away,but i guess it becomes more bearable over time.

He was a great man.

I am thankful that even though my daughter will never know her grandfather,her grandfather had met her.

and i am proud to be his daughter.
Even prouder to have had him as my father.

May Allaah ease his abode,have mercy on and bless his soul.

Our world revolving around the ICU..

My dad has been admitted again and this time in the ICU..He was taken to the hospital last night well after midnight.This is the third time in the past two months..

before they said that it was his heart,but this time the doctors are saying that he has some fluid in his lungs..They said that that's whats been causing the harsh difficulty in breathing and chest pain..

The good news is that they have said that there was no need for an operation,they believe that it can be solved with medications..Alhamdulillaah..
Please include us in your prayers..

As I am not allowed to sit in one place for too long or walk around a lot.,l cannot be there with for him as much as i would like..:-(
But i did visit him this evening..one visitor at a time is allowed for an hour in the evening..
And i spent most of it there with him..Actually till the nurses came and officially kicked me out..lol..

he was feeling a lot better and he looked much more relaxed..i was delighted..Alhamdulillah..

Someone always has to stay there in the hospital in the waiting area at all times..two uncles,my brother,(the one who is a year younger than me,Faisal)and my hubby are dividing the shifts staying there..I feel so unhappy that i cant contribute..the last time,I stayed with him most of the time,(We didn't know that i was pregnant at the time yet,though i always was feeling exhausted running all around)and now that i can't go there to be there for dad,its been tough..Mom with her baby merely a a month old,cannot even visit dad..babies aren't allowed in the hospital these days due to the various diseases..the uncles work and so does my hubby..and my brother is a student.But they are managing well Masha allaah..
I am hoping,praying for the best..
Praying that my dad gets well and back to normal soon..insha Allaah..

Me?
Im doing good Hamdulillaah.thanks for asking.
My doctor said that me and my little angel are both fine hamdulillaah..
We have to go to her again next Tuesday..to check our lil angels heart beat!I can hardly wait..
And about my pregnancy..morning sickness has not kicked in..we are hoping that it stays that way..
But i am hungry all the time!!!!
Craving sweets more than ever!!!!

Don't worry,i will try to get a hold of myself if sweet cravings are becoming too much!:-)

My only problem is that my belly isn't showing much yet.
I can hardly wait to walk around proudly with a huge pregnant belly..Insha Allaah!:-)
It's almost as big as this.Well,Maybe i only see that,but im hoping that its not my over active imagination,LOL..

hugs,
Angel

Anyone miss me?

It's been so long since i posted last..
It's been such a hectic of couple of weeks.My dad was admitted in the hospital with a critical heart condition.Pile on top of it his diabetes!!!!
:-(
I stayed awake with him most of the nights,me and my hubby both.(My brother was with him for the rest.We did shifts staying with him at all times,though dad kept insisting that he was fine.)After almost a week,dad is outta the hospital Alhamdulillaah.Honestly i didn't get even a few minutes to blog.But i am thankful Alhamdulillaah that dad is doing better,and i am praying that his condition gets better insha Allaah.

It's been two days after dad was discharged from the hospital.I came home and slept all evening and all night too.It is very unusual for me to be able to sleep soooo long hours.

I don't really know why,but I haven't been feeling really well for the past coupla days.So all i am doing is reading and a whole lot of just doing nothing.No hexing either.But i hexed a lot during the long hours i spent at the hospital with dad.I felt so happy knowing that dad loved what i was doing.He even helped me arrange some hexy blocks into flowers!
Dad told me stories about how even when i was a kid i used to make little cute stuff with my hands and paste little pictures all over the place,draw pretty stuff on the mirrors..etc etc.
I felt so happy feeling how proud he was of me.

He told us various fascinating stories about his amazing life,things we haven't seen or heard of ever before.Boy was my dad a great man.He still is.maybe,I will tell ya some of the stories sometime later.Insha allaah.

About what i have been up to..
I sewed a dozen abayas a while back.So i haven't been thinking about any more as i don't think i need more right now.But recently,While browsing for abaya designs(I love doing this and do this a lot for no reason that i can explain,)I found this amazing full butterfly abaya.Love at first sight.It looks so royal so elegant,and it looks so easy i could make it in under half an hour!Insha allaah.Anyone can!(Do i hope too much??)

see the gold satin lining?isn't it just amazing?
I have to have this one.One exactly the same would be fine though.And i am going to use black satin for the lining insha Allah.It's so so so beautiful.I love it so so so much.It's from sunnahstyle.com.
This is how my abaya should look like when its done.
I wear all black on black so it's quite a challenge creating something different every time.And i try to keep embellishments to a minimum on my abayas.

I haven't really figure out whats up with this sleeve,but its a nice look,though a little festive.not for everyday wear definitely.Cover the hair and chest and it would be a perfect outfit for us.Don't you think?


Another butterfly abaya from sunnah style.com.This one isn't a full butterfly,it has a cute sleeve.see it?

My hexy garden has grown a lot very long,but no pics unfortunately.I'll be running back with it to show you as soon as i get some shots of it,insha allaah.
I'm nodding off again.In the middle of the afternoon.And i slept all morning too.
I'm telling ya, something is not right with me!

Toodles!

Lotsa love from,
Angeliquez