Back from the hospital..Thank God..

What i'm feeling like right now..



A Luscious strawberry!*giggle*


Did I mention that i have been having fever since i got pregnant?No?I'm not sure.Well,the thing is,i have been.
Actually for the last 4 weeks.It was always come and go type fever,and as it is pretty normal for my body to act like that to any changes,we assumed that it was about the pregnancy changes.
I had slight abdominal pain too,which the doctor diagnosed as a not so to worry about infection which could be dealt with drinking plenty fluids.
That was,until yesterday morning,when my fever got worse,so bad that i could hardly walk on my own.
Limbs hurting and a severe back ache accompanied with the worst cold ever,loss of appetite for a whole day so i didn't really have anything in my stomach..
hubby took me to the doctor early in the morning after fajr,at close to 6.00 AM,when i started to get sick ahem,puked(it wasn't morning sickness i guess because that was it,i don't feel sick anymore,hamdulillaah).
I was sent home after a few tests(which showed that my infection was not so good),and given paracetamol to take every four hours,and antibiotics 3 times daily.By the evening,despite taking paracetamol every four hours,my fever wasn't doing so good.I was still running a high temperature when i went the gynecologist after 3 hours of eating my meds.
As i mentioned before,i had an appointment scheduled with my gynecologist for last evening.
She checked me up.and She got me alarmed being alarmed herself about my condition.she got me admitted in the hospital right away.Luckily Masha Allaah,even though i did get fever again in the midnight,it didn't get too high.By the morning,several hours had passed without fever,and also it was without taking the pills.Alhamdulillaah.
The hospital bed was sooo uncomfortable!Hubby stayed there with me awake all night..Alhamdulillaah i was discharged late this afternoon.Now im home,ready to hit the sack.(and hungry,lol)My poor poor hubby he is asleep now,knocked unconscious as soon as we got home!I myself am dozing off right now...

The sunshine in my belly!

Here's my new blog..
I thought it would be nice to have a new blog about the sunshine in my belly!

But i would be posting about it here too..just thought i might keep it in a separate blog too!Does that even make sense?

Of course you cant be as excited as i am,but it would be so nice even if you totally pretend to be!:-) )
I am 6 weeks and a day pregnant now.
We got confirmed on this very happy news when i made a home pregnancy test on the 15th of this month.By then,I was already 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant.
Thank you Allaah,for no one could have given me a better gift!

As I am writing this I am still awaiting the arrival of the dreaded morning sickness.My mom always had it,and had it bad.Everyone thought that i would follow her there.lol.
But miraculously Masha Allaah,I am in my 6th week and still have no sign of the morning sickness.Alhamdulillaah!

But that doesn't mean that I am a miracle.Though one is happening inside me right now,i am far from being one myself.I have been prettt-tty hormonal and have been ahem,on an emotional roller coaster.Or a not so joy all the time joy ride.Or a ..well,you get the point.I am hardly a person who isn't in charge of her emotions..so this hasn't been exactly easy.But i am working on it.And i have decided that i am handling it pretty well:-)
And there i this thing about me eating everything in site.Yep,everything.
Last night i ate a whole carrot,with nothing else,just dipped it into chilli sauce.No,really,and i loved it.
I know i wouldnt have been hungry enough to eat like a rabbit,not if I was my old unpregnant self.
Yeah,that's a good argument.:-)

Here is what my little angel is up to this week!

This is going to be a busy week for your amazing little embryo. Their brain is still growing remarkably fast; miniature hand plates are starting to develop and the early formations of what will be their fingers are already visible. Also, the lower limbs do not develop quite as fast, so they’re pretty much still flippers. Up until this point, your baby has been very curled up with the head and tail in close proximity, but this week their trunk and neck are beginning to grow and straighten as their tail recedes into its resting position in the back. Even though your little miracle is only 6 weeks old, they’re already capable of demonstrating reflex responses to touch!

http://pregnancy.baby-gaga.com/

Last night,hubby told me that my belly looks little bigger now!:-)
I have been feeling that since i missed my monthly happenings.And also it doest hurt to have an over active too hopeful imagination either!lol..
Oh the joy!
I can hardly wait to walk around with a big pregnant belly!:-)

My next appointment with the doctor is tomorrow.I have never looked forward to a doctor's appointment this much before.She said she would be checking my angels heart beat tomorrow night..:-)

I'm so hungry..care to join me for a snack?:-)

xo,
Angeliquez

Dad's still in the hospital,but not in the intensive care unit anymore.
I visited him yesterday and he was feeling better,Hamdulillaah.
But we don't yet know when they are going to discharge him yet this time.
Thank you everyone,for keeping us close in your prayers..

This is for you,for being so very sweet and kind through all this..
And i have plenty more love and prayers for you.where this came from.



Hugs,
Angeliquez

Our world revolving around the ICU..

My dad has been admitted again and this time in the ICU..He was taken to the hospital last night well after midnight.This is the third time in the past two months..

before they said that it was his heart,but this time the doctors are saying that he has some fluid in his lungs..They said that that's whats been causing the harsh difficulty in breathing and chest pain..

The good news is that they have said that there was no need for an operation,they believe that it can be solved with medications..Alhamdulillaah..
Please include us in your prayers..

As I am not allowed to sit in one place for too long or walk around a lot.,l cannot be there with for him as much as i would like..:-(
But i did visit him this evening..one visitor at a time is allowed for an hour in the evening..
And i spent most of it there with him..Actually till the nurses came and officially kicked me out..lol..

he was feeling a lot better and he looked much more relaxed..i was delighted..Alhamdulillah..

Someone always has to stay there in the hospital in the waiting area at all times..two uncles,my brother,(the one who is a year younger than me,Faisal)and my hubby are dividing the shifts staying there..I feel so unhappy that i cant contribute..the last time,I stayed with him most of the time,(We didn't know that i was pregnant at the time yet,though i always was feeling exhausted running all around)and now that i can't go there to be there for dad,its been tough..Mom with her baby merely a a month old,cannot even visit dad..babies aren't allowed in the hospital these days due to the various diseases..the uncles work and so does my hubby..and my brother is a student.But they are managing well Masha allaah..
I am hoping,praying for the best..
Praying that my dad gets well and back to normal soon..insha Allaah..

Me?
Im doing good Hamdulillaah.thanks for asking.
My doctor said that me and my little angel are both fine hamdulillaah..
We have to go to her again next Tuesday..to check our lil angels heart beat!I can hardly wait..
And about my pregnancy..morning sickness has not kicked in..we are hoping that it stays that way..
But i am hungry all the time!!!!
Craving sweets more than ever!!!!

Don't worry,i will try to get a hold of myself if sweet cravings are becoming too much!:-)

My only problem is that my belly isn't showing much yet.
I can hardly wait to walk around proudly with a huge pregnant belly..Insha Allaah!:-)
It's almost as big as this.Well,Maybe i only see that,but im hoping that its not my over active imagination,LOL..

hugs,
Angel

In 245 days..

Insha Allaah!

I am 5 weeks pregnant now..and counting..
we are so very happy..
All we can say is Alhamdulillaah!

CONVERSATION ABOUT ALLAH

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with ALLAH, The ALMIGHTY.
He asks one of his New Muslim Student to stand and . . .

Professor : You are a Muslim, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So you Believe in ALLAH ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is ALLAH Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is ALLAH ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to ALLAH to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to Help Others who are ill.
But ALLAH didn't.
How is this ALLAH Good then ? Hmm ?

( Student is silent )

Professor : You can't answer, can you ?
Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is ALLAH Good ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . ALLAH . . .
Professor : That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this World ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ?
And ALLAH did make Everything. Correct ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?

( Student does not answer )

Professor : Is there Sickness ? Immorality ? Hatred ? Ugliness ?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?

( Student has no answer )

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen ALLAH ?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your ALLAH ?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your ALLAH , Tasted your ALLAH , Smelt your ALLAH ?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of ALLAH for that matter ?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your ALLAH doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son ?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith .
Professor : Yes. Faith . And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.

( The Lecture Theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat,
a Little Heat or No Heat.
But we don't have anything called Cold.
We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure Cold.
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student : What about Darkness, Professor ? Is there such a thing as Darkness ?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness ?
Student : You're wrong again, sir.
Darkness is the Absence of Something.
You can have Low Light, Normal Light , Bright Light, Flashing Light . . .
But if you have No Light Constantly, you have Nothing and it's called Darkness, isn't it ?
In reality, Darkness isn't.
If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you ?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is Flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how ?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good ALLAH and a Bad ALLAH .
You are viewing the Concept of ALLAH as something finite, something we can measure.
Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought.
It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that
Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life : just the Absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor, do you Teach your Students that they Evolved from a Monkey ?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir ?

( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and
cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor,
are you not Teaching your Opinion, sir ?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher ?

( The Class is in Uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever Seen the Professor's Brain ?

( The Class breaks out into Laughter )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever Heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, Touched or Smelt it ? . . .
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that
you have No Brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir ?

( The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable )

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith , son.
Student : That is it sir . . .
the Link between Man & ALLAH is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.


It turned out later that the student was Masha Allaah,Dr Zakir Naik.

Why is it so hard to let go?

a beautiful story..
It raised my spirits,and got me thinking and thanking Allaah..
I wanted to share it with you!


WHY IS IT SO HARD TO LET GO?

The cheerful girl with bouncy golden curls was almost five.Waiting with her mother at the checkout stand, she saw them: a circle of glistening white pearls in a pink foil box.

"Oh please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please?"

Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl's upturned face .

"One rand ninety-five. That's almost R2.00. If you really want them, I'll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday's only a week away and you might get some money from Grandma."

As soon as Fatima got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted Out 17 cents. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. Kamaa if she could pick dandelions for ten cents.

On her birthday, Grandma did give her another rand and at last she Had enough money to buy the necklace.

Fatima loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up.
She wore them everywhere - Madrassa, kindergarten, even to bed.

The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had A bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.

Fatima had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready For bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story.


One night when he finished the story, he asked Fatima, "Do you love me?"

"Oh yes, Daddy. You know that I love you."

"Then give me your pearls."

"Oh, Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess - the white Horse from my collection. The one with the pink tail. Remember,Daddy? The one you gave me. She's my favourite."

"That's okay, Honey. Daddy loves you. And he brushed her cheek with a kiss.

About a week later, after the story time, Fatima's daddy asked again,
"Do you love me?"

"Daddy, you know I love you."

"Then give me your pearls."
"Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my baby doll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is so beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper."

"That's okay. Sleep well little one. Daddy loves
you"

And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss.

A few nights later when her daddy came in, Fatima was sitting on her
Bed with her legs crossed Indian-style. As he came close, he noticed
her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek.


"What is it, Fatima? What's the matter?" Fatima didn't say anything
But lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it,
there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver, she finally
said,
"Here,
Daddy.
It's for you."

With tears gathering in his own eyes, Fatima's kind daddy reached out with one hand to take the cheap store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Fatima.

He had them all the time. He was just waiting for her to give up
The cheap store stuff so he could give her the genuine treasure.

So as it is with Allah. Allah is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that Allah can give us beautiful treasures.
Are you holding onto things which Allah wants you to let go of?

Are you holding on to harmful or unnecessary partners,
relationships, habits and activities which you have come so attached
to that it seems impossible to let go of?


Sometimes it is so hard to see what is in the other hand, but
Do believe this one thing.. Allah will never take away something without giving you something better to take its place.

The butterfly story.

I have not heard this story before.I read it here in a Muslim wife's blog.Masha Allaah beautiful place she has got there..Go visit her and see for yourself!



A man found a cocoon of a butterfly.

one day a small opening appeared; he sat and watched the Butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could and it could go no farther.

Then the man decided to help the Butterfly, so he took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the Cocoon. The Butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the Butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened!

In fact, the Butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What this man in his kindness and haste did not understand was that the restricting Cocoon and the struggle required for the Butterfly to get through the tiny opening were nature's way of forcing fluid from the body of the Butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the Cocoon.

Moral:

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If nature allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. And we could never fly. Freedom and flight would only come after the struggle (Jihad).

Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere.

-Noble Qur'an (2:155)

truly,Allaah is with the patient ones.

we so often forget that everything happens for a good reason.We tend to forget that Allaah always has a bigger better plan than our incapable minds could see.We are so quick to become impatient and start complaining.Allaah is the most sufficient..he does not need us,it is we who need Him..He is The All Knowing.It's up to us to be patient because every hardship in life,every misery,we are put through it for our own good.

love from,
Angeliquez

Anyone miss me?

It's been so long since i posted last..
It's been such a hectic of couple of weeks.My dad was admitted in the hospital with a critical heart condition.Pile on top of it his diabetes!!!!
:-(
I stayed awake with him most of the nights,me and my hubby both.(My brother was with him for the rest.We did shifts staying with him at all times,though dad kept insisting that he was fine.)After almost a week,dad is outta the hospital Alhamdulillaah.Honestly i didn't get even a few minutes to blog.But i am thankful Alhamdulillaah that dad is doing better,and i am praying that his condition gets better insha Allaah.

It's been two days after dad was discharged from the hospital.I came home and slept all evening and all night too.It is very unusual for me to be able to sleep soooo long hours.

I don't really know why,but I haven't been feeling really well for the past coupla days.So all i am doing is reading and a whole lot of just doing nothing.No hexing either.But i hexed a lot during the long hours i spent at the hospital with dad.I felt so happy knowing that dad loved what i was doing.He even helped me arrange some hexy blocks into flowers!
Dad told me stories about how even when i was a kid i used to make little cute stuff with my hands and paste little pictures all over the place,draw pretty stuff on the mirrors..etc etc.
I felt so happy feeling how proud he was of me.

He told us various fascinating stories about his amazing life,things we haven't seen or heard of ever before.Boy was my dad a great man.He still is.maybe,I will tell ya some of the stories sometime later.Insha allaah.

About what i have been up to..
I sewed a dozen abayas a while back.So i haven't been thinking about any more as i don't think i need more right now.But recently,While browsing for abaya designs(I love doing this and do this a lot for no reason that i can explain,)I found this amazing full butterfly abaya.Love at first sight.It looks so royal so elegant,and it looks so easy i could make it in under half an hour!Insha allaah.Anyone can!(Do i hope too much??)

see the gold satin lining?isn't it just amazing?
I have to have this one.One exactly the same would be fine though.And i am going to use black satin for the lining insha Allah.It's so so so beautiful.I love it so so so much.It's from sunnahstyle.com.
This is how my abaya should look like when its done.
I wear all black on black so it's quite a challenge creating something different every time.And i try to keep embellishments to a minimum on my abayas.

I haven't really figure out whats up with this sleeve,but its a nice look,though a little festive.not for everyday wear definitely.Cover the hair and chest and it would be a perfect outfit for us.Don't you think?


Another butterfly abaya from sunnah style.com.This one isn't a full butterfly,it has a cute sleeve.see it?

My hexy garden has grown a lot very long,but no pics unfortunately.I'll be running back with it to show you as soon as i get some shots of it,insha allaah.
I'm nodding off again.In the middle of the afternoon.And i slept all morning too.
I'm telling ya, something is not right with me!

Toodles!

Lotsa love from,
Angeliquez